The Man

Grounded as a rock
The man can’t walk

With sky open wide
The man is looking for a guide

Brain is throwing up many possibilities
The man is busy analyzing all probabilities

Heart seems to be closer to the dream
The man is looking to revive his esteem

Under dim lights penning down the promises
The man is doubting thomases

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True Friends!

Hey,

I am writing this to you to let you know that I miss our good old days. I have been off lately and I am very sorry for behaving oddly and hurting you. I wish, I could share my troublesome feelings but I didn’t want my negativity to effect you in a bad way. I didn’t want you to think that I am cynical and pessimistic. I remember in college, I dragged myself away from a very close friend. But you know, what he did? He changed the course of my boat, so that I don’t beat myself up hard and drift away. He made me understand the true meaning of relationships. And I will remember that for rest of my life. There was one more close friend, whom I wish (till today) would have done the same. Well, life is long and I am still hopeful. I must admit, I was bit jealous of you and I thought that I am not good enough for your loyal company. It hurts every single night that I am moving away from you. Sometimes, I feel I am protecting you from my dark side but I see you cry inside, too. And that’s not good for either one of us. I know you have tried dragging me in but try more. I want you to fight a little more and I will come back to you like a boomerang.

P.S. Here is a good piece of music for your ears – Shine

Bad Blood

A ray of blood dripping off your forehead
Gliding over your skin, cautiously passing by your hairline
Showing its edges and curves like a vibrant woman

Now it is touching your silky eyebrow hair
Its soft wet touch refreshes you the way your sweat stimulates you when it meets a sudden rush of air

As the pathless ray of blood moves on, it touches your eyelid
It makes you itch and you close your eyes to make it go away
After you open your itched eyes, what do you see?
Do you see world blooded in red by ruthless killings?
Do you feel hate towards psychopaths and killers or do you empathize with them?
What do you feel, tell me please!

The ray of blood now reaches the right side of your nostrils
And a sudden unwanted aroma numb your brain nerves
Does it smell foul?
What do you smell, tell me please!

Now the ray of blood undesirably takes two different paths
One scratches the right side of your lips, tempting you to taste it
You let your hungry tongue romanticize with the gutted blood
How does it taste? Do you feel like having more of it?
What do you want, tell me please!

The other divided part takes a diagonal cross
And glides past your chin
Is it giving you creeps, goosebumps?

It goes on a roller coaster ride, through your neck
It starts to move slowly for an unknown reason
And finally reaches its destination, that is, your heart

Does it feel bad? Or is the blood bad?
What is your heart telling you at this moment?
Please open up and tell the world
Our ears are open, and we are listening closely

“Warui Chi”

 

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Last few hours at BITS

As my journey today takes another turn into a mysterious path ahead, I recall the day I came here. That day my aims were different, were different in all perspectives. It was not because I was ignorant “3 and half” years back but was not strong enough to accept who I am. I was weak emotionally and being in a protective family and sometimes even over protective, I have not seen criticism and being among the top half of the class I was totally unaware about how the other half thinks. To be there is totally different (I get it now). Being shy yet good at making friends are two of the few good things I have inherited quite superbly from my parents but how to be “choosy” hasn’t been my cup of tea hence it has been a learning curve that has challenged me quite often especially in a past year or so.

I also recall the day I went for “Quark 2010” inductions (on gut feeling that it would be fun) but didn’t know it would have such a huge influence on my career options. Being it be the electives I signed for or the classes I bunked, the decision was always inspired by it. Though I would never miss those bunked classes but will miss “Biju Sir” for sure as his work ethics drove me to success at Quark 2012.

I always want to be around good people with ambition and down-to-earth personality not to just to hang out but to listen to them, and to see them behave and few of them which I would proudly be calling friends today has helped me learn. Also I never believed so much in mentorship as I do strongly think now that successful man needs a strong/successful mentor during/at every turn and you have to be patient to achieve higher goals. To conclude I strongly believe that my time at BITS was not about scoring grades, or failures or few successes but a reminder of “what impact I want to be” which I lost when I decided to go along with the rat race a few years back.

Keep going, climbing up the mountain and one day you will be huge

You are never too old to set another goal or to dream a new dream – C.S. Lewis

What I really want?

The video [What if Money didn’t matter] inspires me to write about the paths and choices we consider out of emotions, family, friends, and of course, due to sheep like mentality. In the following paras I will give you the reason behind all this and then I will move on to the possible solution(s). So lets begin.

Actually, we are not looking and proceeding things the right way. Seeing people around and listening them makes me ponder two things: are they really that ignorant or they just don’t want people to know about their insecurities. Whatever the answer is, one thing is for sure that is: they are afraid. But afraid of what? We have friends, and family to support and obviously we are not living in countries where any second death can take us away. Then what else it could be? I believe the only thing human race is afraid of is: Losing. And that’s logically correct because nobody wants to lose; “Not to lose” is in our DNA. It is good sometimes but proves fatal while setting up goals, career paths and choices because this behavior is the reason behind our insecurities and that’s why we generally don’t take risks. It tends to make us weak from inside. And since we have been a part of this system for years, seriously! we just can’t expect to turn things around overnight. Even if you try, your mind would tell you “you are wrong to change the things the way they are”. But does this mean we can’t? Let me tell you there is nothing humans can’t do. Think for a moment who would had thought we will go to moon one day and see today, our eyes are on Mars. I know things like that sounds good at reading and especially at writing as many of you would argue. But bear with me for some more time. At the end of it, you might be able to change.

Most of us spend most of our time in finding out what we don’t like or what we don’t want to do? Do you think you ever gonna reach to the answer to that particular question. I doubt you would. There are so many things we hate, so many things we like to jump off right away if they fall in our ways. This approach only makes our lives tougher and as a result we all fall in no-man’s land most of the time. We get struck in a trap, a never ending loop. So what should we do. My answer would be: start thinking “what I really want” instead. It’s much easier this way as I guess our options will be narrowed down. It’s easier also because this way we would be choosing things. And choosing things is far more easier and less confusing then to leave things. But, how can we be sure that we are choosing right ways. I believe following might help you recognizing “what I really want”.

1) Write down all your doubts. Literally anything you can ever doubt about.

2) Think what type of person you are and what type you urge to become i.e the qualities you like to develop [at-least 10 on each] and pen them down in two separate columns

3) On the left, write down “what type person you are” in descending order. That is best thing about you at top and so on.

5) Similarly, on the right, write down “what type you urge to become”

6) Now match “what type person you are” with what you believe you might end up, if you continue to remain the person you are now [Be true to yourself].

7) If none of the options matched then it means you really need to think and think hard about what you doing with your life.

8) The above case is very rare, so don’t worry.

9) After you are done with above steps, strike out the unmatched options and write down the remaining on a fresh piece of paper.

9th step is most important. We are confused most of the time because we think too much on things which are not worthful and thus, we lose focus on the important ones. Therefore, while striking out in the 9th step, we actually are acknowledging thoughts which will not be helping us in moving forward and the ones which would for certain.

So moving on to 10th step….

10) Look at the points [ at the bottom of right side column] and analyse them with their match i.e. “what type person you are” on left side column, as these are the ones which need to be enhanced first.

11) Now comes the most interesting and difficult task i.e. find out the profession/path that goes with all or atleast 90% of the choices left. Once you are done finding that follow it every day without any further doubt and I believe you will soon be successful, happy, wealthy and most importantly in peace with your mind.

Some thoughts act like an anchor, so better cut them down at the right time before they drag you to dearth. Follow your dreams no matter how big or small you think they are and master them to earn at best of your ability