Just a Dream

I am at 12, sitting on the bench
watching the moon dance and thinking
how ravishing the sky looks
how heavenly the sky is, without clouds

I am ready for sun
to suit up for the day
It cuts through the bulky clouds
pushing me to office and giving me blues

Now, I am ready for afternoon
I am ready for some time out
I am ready for some happening
and I wish I won’t be let down
Apparently, I’d fun time
looking at my spoon and fork
and shaking off some of my old weight

Now, its time to go home, home and home
I am ready to walk down the road to let breeze fill my clothes
and I am ready for my music track to lift my heavy soul

Surprise as I am, it’s just a dream
and I am here at 12 again, sitting on the same bench
watching the moon dance and thinking
how ravishing the sky looks
how heavenly the sky is, without clouds

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“She” – The Protagonist

Her brain is big mystery even for her,
someone controls it and that’s not her

It imagined an accident and someone’s death
such is her dream you don’t want to dream

Anxiety and restlessness is what she feels
far from love and affection as you may see

But those things make her hate who she is
and those things drag her, they drag her to the edge

The edge you don’t want to be standing on
the edge that give her the reason to keep herself on

She wants to learn every second of her breath
but her present does make her feel suffocated to death

She fears she may follow an unfulfilled potential
so she is on a mission to prove her belief wrong
and thus she drags, she drags herself on and on

Her mind is crazy and reminds her
time to time that she is the one who is wrong
so you may always find her finding her true wisdom
the true wisdom that seem to be her only love

All this make her mean and choosy
thus she come across as cold and bossy

Let me tell you it contrasts her personality
and she fights hard but sadly she never wins the fight

She doesn’t want to live such a life every day
and prays to god that her enemies have a better way

anxiety-sucks

Like a fish in the sea

Taking on dreams made you who you are
back then you’re a shining light but now
hard and stiff is who you’d become
always pointing out errors outside
and your fun is lost, the real why is lost

Tell me don’t you want to be free
free like a grapevine, free like the tree roots
flowing and flowing and flowing like a fish in the sea

Don’t you want to be laughed at
laughed at to overcome your insecurities
laughed at to unburden given responsibilities
force out the fear of pressure that is pulling you inside
to let your words flow out like a fish in the sea

You always said money is not the truth
sense of values is the truth I root for
and truth is the purpose I live by
I see that your real truth is dead now
and you see truth is the falseness you seem not to care about

Break, break the shackles that holds you back
give away the dreams that holds you back
and feel the love inside your heart

Can you hear, can you hear me
your ears are short and your brain is big
so, I am shouting hard today
listen to me, listen to me please

Without you I feel like I am in space
collapsing and going farther and farther away
my heart explodes in tears watching your state

I can’t bear these emotions any longer
so, I am giving myself one last chance
please come back, please come back
and be like a fish in the sea

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Express YOURSELF

I am not good at starting and ending posts. I spend more than required clock banging my head!! to find right mix of words and phrases. Anyway, this post isn’t about how to start and end, actually my thoughts are completely opposite. One thing I learned in the last 90 days is that Don’t you worry child! heavens got a plan for you. Just kidding!!

It’s a human tendency and pretty normal that we want one clear headed road from start to end. Every one of us looks for one path that could change our life completely. We google steps (top 10, to be precise) to go about doing things in the way they are supposed to be done. And right there, we lose focus. Dreams are good! I am totally into dreaming shit! But at times dreaming is simply not good enough. I guess I am going off-track! So, let’s hit the right the track again.

Some of you must be wandering what-the-hell I am talking about. Well, I am raising the curtains! This is not about “focusing tips” either. It’s about expressing yourself.

I had tough time acknowledging that I am damn! bad, when it comes to expressing feelings, emotions and all that crap! So how do you learn this skill? Wait, I am not starting with my “top 10” ways to express feelings! either. I still struggle.

Talking more! I love artists (you know those singers, musicians, painters and what not) I admire them. I seriously do! Because unless you are confident with yourself you can’t produce magnificent artworks. I am not saying they are perfect but they, for sure, do the job better. I am into artists totally! I love the way singers/musicians express their feelings and emotions though lyrics, rhymes, the way they play their guitars and drums and all the crazy looking instruments and the way they sing! God! They do whatever they do so passionately! It is so similar to listening Dr. Martin Luther King, Steve Jobs, and all the other great orators. Now, I get it that’s why they are “VISIONARY” leaders. They know who they are and thus they have the courage to lead us.

Some of you may ask: how artists lead people? I hate to break this to you! But I need to. Okay, I am ready, keep your ears open. Don’t you start dancing, whispering, humming, and feeling good with the person standing right beside you (who, by the way, is your girlfriend/boyfriend/ex-girlfriend/ex-boyfriend/workmate/roommate/annoying cousins/remaining-entities, whom you wish you’d kill) that’s an impact they create! That’s amazing! That’s mesmerizing! Mind-blowing. That’s what leaders do. They make us realize a common goal and head us towards it without anyone of us even knowing it.

I love painters/sculptors. I have been scanning through lot of good paintings lately, may be this is a onetime thing or may be not. Who cares! Continuing with the point…one thing that they all have in common is they ask us to observe and learn from the faces, shapes, bodies and systems they depict. They picture dreams, which become inspiration for people, who ultimately turns them into reality. How incredible that is. Fascinating stuff!

To summarize, I want you to project out the artist inside you. The world really need leaders with artistic talents.

P.S. If you are thinking I am high! Then you are absolutely correct! But one catch, I am high on MUSIC tonight. Listening to: I heard you through grapevine by Marvin Gaye

P.P.S. I read this crazy stuff (can’t help I read, watch and write lot of crazy stupid “stuff”) that when you mention the letter “I” often in your writing then you are a self-centered person. And, believe me, I have tried here that I should not come across and sound and look self-centered. If I do, then you are probably right.

P.P.P.S. My inspiration for this post is: X Factor US

P.P.P.P.S. Don’t look for a clear start-to-end path, just do things that matter to YOU.

P.P.P.P.P.S. And please! please! and please! ignore my grammatical errors as I am a decent communicator, who happens to be a bad writer.

SEE YA NEXT TIME!! 😀

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